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Thursday, June 3, 2010

Letting Go of Anger

June 3, 2010 (2 miles/8000 steps  220 calories)
FYI:  For those of you who wonder, I keep track of my miles/steps walked when I exercise to keep me motivated.

Ok, anger.  Anger is a cancer of the soul.  Unaddressed anger festers and eats away at your bio-psycho-social-spiritual being.  When you have unaddressed anger issues, you will behave and react in ways that do not reflect your higher self.  A normally sweet and caring person can be transformed by repressed anger into a screaming banshee--I for one, have been there.  

What are you angry about?

  • You have issues!  Childhood issues: caretakers, environment, sibling rivalry, abuse, neglect, ABANDONMENT
  • You have low self esteem:  you were told you weren't good enough, pretty enough, smart enough, rich enough, etc.
  • You are too nice:  you're too nice and people take advantage of your inability to say no, you are afraid of rejection or abandonment--so you cave in over and over...until you explode.
  • You are always the victim.  Everybody done you wrong.  Never taking responsibility for your own actions or part in a situation stunts your spiritual growth.  
  • You are depressed.  Depression is anger directed at yourself. Maybe you didn't live up to expectations you set for yourself or the ones your family programmed you with.  So you withdraw from the world--and yourself.
Anger fact:  Your IQ drops 10 points when you become enraged.  That's right, ten.  I personally think mine drops at least 25.....

Anger is bad stress and releases high levels of cortisol ( a necessary hormone) in the blood.  High levels of cortisol place the body in a "fight or flight" condition, which when you are reacting to a mugger running towards you, is healthy and helps you evade the very real threat in this case.  

Sustained high levels of cortisol however:
  • increase your blood pressure
  • increase the fat around your abdomen, which increases your risk of heart attack and stroke
  • suppresses your immune system (which you need to function at optimum level to fight cancer)
  • causes unstable levels of blood sugar
  • stimulates the appetite--people with high levels eat more sugary, fatty (comfort) foods, creating a thick, sludgy blood devoid of oxygen which cancer absolutely LOVES.
As you can see, anger is detrimental when allowed to fester.  Anger management class, meditation, counseling, journaling, prayer, and a willingness to do the work required are all helpful in keeping emotions in BALANCE.  

Our body, mind and spirit desperately want to be in balance. I know mine does. Breast cancer showed up to tell me how out of balance and toxic I'd become.   





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